untitled (moon)

01 Aug


Look for a new venue announcement (for artists and for audiences) coming in the next few days…



I am the moon tonight

smoky luminescence through the street

reflecting off the hidden

you can sell me, if you like

I am your property, sole

it is your right to stray as blind as all great fiction


but walk softly, dear, because right now we are alone

(for real this time)

and needn’t make much noise

hushed, the night will taste us hallowed

and I’ll drink on your forever

because you hide eternity within

then I’ll feel selfish, as I am due, surrendered as a savage


but, here

this is the way that I can retaliate your favor

all this you’ve given me

I’ll be the moon tonight

your moon, your man

for you

guiding you back home


Update + Reading Announcement (Addendum)

22 Jul



For the first time in six months, I’ve updated the Official Material section.




Fruday (7/25) 73 8th Ave (btwn 13th and 14th streets) (NEW LOCATION: Impromptu Reading from Washington Sq. Park) 7:30PM Co-Hosted by my dear friend Zarina Zabrisky* 


Saturday (7/26) 11 W8th st. 8PM - Eva’s Restaurant (Nitty Gritty Open Mic)


Sunday (7/27) 11 E13th st. 8PM – Brianna’s Awesome Open Mic at Karaoke Cave

*Her new novel We, Monsters available through her website… 



What happens at 4am…

21 Jul





exhausted by this eternity

I whittle myself to my barest form

a tired twenty seven

about ten pounds off my fighting weight

my halo just the blurred vision of the other drunks

I’ll fart out a living eulogy

spend my last few cents on airfare to Kenya

buy myself a couple of gas can gallons of Changaa

for my last binge

instead of drinking to sleep

this is drinking to wed

a celebration of my connubiality to this fate

self-imposed, of course

this is no rage

no dying of the light

no good story to tell

a swim in the spittoon

endless shit between my fingers

forcing my hand to put a smile on the body

laying still

exhausted by this eternity


lidocaine for the soul

20 Jul





and I woke up by her side again

and it was a miracle that stuck

a manifesto waiting to burn through my stomach

my body perihelion before her

two weeks and a solo performance

warm, inviting, it soused me whole again

as such, contained, we’d walk past the libraries – where the lies are buried

past the creaky oblivion of daily routine, all of you with your self-eclipsing retinue

past the leaning mugs of hoary scholars and the weary roguishness of lively buskers

(of whom I was a patron saint)

and we would rest on the rusting grass of Washington Square Park

turning puce like my eyes at the end of an acid trip

her head on my stomach

tender, pillowed out just for her comfort

and because a late night Checkers opened on my block

five dollars for two American bacon melts

make this impoverished lush feel nearly patriotic

1,200 shitty calories and a pocketful of beer money

and now that we’re older, things aren’t but seem much simpler

the deadlines are more pressing but much easier ignored

and we lie here because we’re both good at conjuring excuses

phantom pains and real eccentricities preventing us from coming in to work

it would be much more difficult and honest

to call in and say,

            “hey man, I just want to spend some time with her

            before we both go mad again –

            we’re both prolific with the whimsy of the twitching caprice”

and dawn, as always, travels here in shifts

punches in his time-card groggily each time

and I’ve traveled the New York trains before sunlight here myself

            it’s a straining subjection to sprightly, varicolored marauders and

            not enough strong coffee and            

            too many slurred, exotic words

            and, goddammit, I haven’t taken amphetamines in at least eight years

I understand his consternation, in other words

but then I manage waking up with her

and his efforts seem worthwhile

to cover us in light

or whatever lambency the drapes allow

a few rays to bury in her hair

she thus, so still, reminds me of when I was brightness

of breakfast time some years ago, of when I used to

eat raspberries and brown sugar blurring mauve beauty in a bowl

with a spoon impatient

in a little hand

foreordained to write these parallels

so sweetly while the time still lasts



for brief interest

10 Jul



To Whom…,

of whom it may concern

when I burn

I promise not to leave any ash

on your carpeting

or on any other suchwise demarcated place

where one would not want to ash

instead I’ll be sunlight

that gets in your hair

dusting about you

wandering the air

until I find you


from inside the green altoids case

02 Jul



love song no. OR9 (melancholy and bubba kush)


these are just road trips

potholes aplenty

i can barely see through the windshield

detroit is for death and determination

man, i’m stoned

a woman behind the drapes, hiding

a blur of guilty chestnut eyes

i fucked an aspiring pop star on a stairwell

of my friend’s place in flatbush

by where the old beef patties shop used to be

and she thanked me with a lyric and an orgasm

then i got a phone call from an ex-wife

telling me she’s pregnant with the california sun

man, i’m stoned

orange juice and milk, and all sorts of unnecessary

the west coast is where you truly feel the ending

that’s what i said or should have said

it’s the feeling that you have arrived

like that hey, how you doing jerk reaction

nowhere to go from here

a few decades and we’ll meet the coast

and then it comes

another joint

someone worth asking for advise

and, man, i’m stoned

but, fuck, forgetting is what we spend our money on

a truth, this new dimension

maybe i’ll start a consulting firm, finish my novel finally

save the world, get a british bulldog, name him chopper

then this will turn into some prison shit, this lying, all this history

crammed in we are complete, completed

jealous of the highway

and, man, i’m stoned


postcards from gethenna

01 Jul



the master as moloch (postcards from gethenna)
most writers
don’t look back
as much
until they’ve reached the corner
they turn around
with hindsight
that they paint as reminiscence
in kaleidoscopic color
always a plimpton or chameleon
in one’s persnickety delusion
creating their own form of slightly fictional
running bare-assed out of the acheron of black and white
turned sepia, turned sulfur; smell
limestone, rotting teeth, decay, reconciliation with life,
bargain-begging for a breath, chalk, tutelage,
a new promise, possibility; the colors
they stream
a resurrection
you can see it
I guarantee it – you can fucking see it
look over there
it’s worth the mesmerism
a shiny golden token
sweaty palms, a Brooklyn arcade in the livid truancy of youth
more writers
look back when they reach the corner
but I’ve only gotten to the bodega
squatting in the middle of the block
but I still had to clock the carbons of shadows and light
reflected in the windows of the parked cars behind me
because I’m a thorough counter of crumbs
and paranoid to boot
and my way home has had more zigzagging
than a Russian anecdote about a swaying landloping lush
threnody or doggerel for a special occasion
reminding you that the four greatest words in our language are
‘peacefully in his sleep’
this is where I find myself
unnaturally, ungracefully looking back
as though I’ve lived a life like gold
as though I’ve truly ever known a thing


Something Coughing

18 Jun



I can’t hurt you



if you take down a painting off the wall

you must replace it with something else to see

I have black eyes, insomnia and regret that buys the bottles

(the man, crooking at the knees like a semicolon behind the bulletproof partition, says the Barton’s blended is the cheapest brown they got – $13.99 per liter)

you have black eyes, tears and too much eyeliner

(there were promises unkept, ruffled feathers and miles passed along Michigan in silence)

I commissioned you for renewal

you said, “man, that’s just some hippy shit!”

and kissed me

there was salt from the tears

but also apricots tasted

I gather, from the lips

and my own happy childhood pangs

of sentimentalizing a dacha and an apricot tree a few houses down

where my first girl

- the color of error and sunflowers

both of us six, we were married;

for a long summer at least –

she showed me how to get to the fruit of that tree

we had to climb a fence

a few skinned knees and some sweetness

a daring in two sets of eyes

a pulpy and blurred harvest buried peregrine

syrupy under the innocence that time has slung atop it

and now all I see is train tracks

endless trips, vocational commitments

loneliness and overcrowding, monthly support payments

stretch marks, a swelling gut that burns

the gnomon has begun to cast its shadow over me

and don’t get me wrong,

I’ve seduced some pleasure from this game

but only spades, the bitch is always on my back

she talks too much

jealous when I’m trying to concentrate

to write, to make you come

to stick around or just to blink

it all takes focus

a certain dematerialization

a desertion, but she keeps on talking

a susurrous coercion   

to accept

how far I’ve gone to please these walls

how much there is still left to do

the fruit there is still left to plunder

how I can’t hurt you

you are fire

you were meant to burn me whole

while I am vainly fighting back


spring song

31 May



why no vernal revelry?


why no vernal revelry?

why no strings? no music

no whisper like sand between her lips

keep going

no reality

no relative truth

no elastic in the process

no exercise in poetry

no begging, no vagrancy

no belonging to the club

no vacancy at my table

jewelry, lightning storms

I’ve got cloudy skies

not enough tattoos

never enough skin

who no vernal revelry, my friends?

why no vengeance? no applause

no summer toes like wind chipping off the face of parking lots

no more of these long sentences

keep going

no news

no myths

no exploration

no explanation

none necessary

but may I suggest

that instead, my friends

say yes

or more precisely, say

empathically, alright!


new breath

27 May



A Train (“una furtiva lagrima” by Enrico Caruso, 1911)


            like a prowling midnight wraith it passes

            like dust

            we travel

            all a temporary kin

            we are survivors

            thrown and shaking

            across bridges, tunnels and bad news

            sitting together, shoulder to shoulder, god to god

            locomoting through

            no destination

            where memory and culture try to find a solidarity


            so close we sit

            the kids dance for smiles and dollars

            swirling around polls as though the metal was a light and it was summer and there was cooking and we were flies alive, abound and peckish with curiosity like an explorer’s hide made grim by wanderlust and rain when it domes over you like falling locusts, like a growing parasol, like the flash of cameras over the pale skin of an American actress smiling for the last hello

weeks at a time

            I watch them before going back to my book

            out of respect for other artists

            struggling to make a buck

            I’ve tried performing on these trains as well

            but I’ll take the street instead

            too shy to preach the underground measure

            a cement that my boots could grab is good enough for me

            I have witnessed prodigies (in the archaic sense)




                                                through the blocks

            I have seen surrender and true love

            I have seen not all, enough

            with more a still filling drink

            a name

            a new name

            all we seek

            all we must change

            if balalaika’s life and banjo death

            then we must change the name along with the tune and season

            and meet again when we are all unconditionally different people

            still traveling to something new


Jack Tsoy Tumult

Morose Pontifications and Other Poetic Ramblings