Posts Tagged ‘Quick Romance’

Some Bittersweet and Lonely Madness


14 May

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I want to date a photographer

 

I want to date a photographer

the smell of a closet turned into a darkroom

catechol, acetic acid

in the morning

a filterless cigarette

waking up in light

in the sanctuary of another artist

another who drifts like a rhythmic martyr

or an aging bicycle on an icy road

pinched flats

I’ll kiss her

just as she pictured it

with corruption just like a limerick on my lips

and there will be a restful slumber

that lasts a day and a full night’s appetite

and then when we stretch

waking up in light

again

she’ll take a photograph

while I’m still in bed

and I’ll pretend

amongst the covers

that I’m anything but happy

in the bliss of undeveloped prints

stuck for a time to find myself exposed

in the winking coffin of her lens

yawning for her smile like a protective dog

hair resembling an eureka moment   

waking up in light

realizing that dust has gathered

and the walls, they have become  

a shoebox full of photographs

like a treasure chest of glass blown into bodies

all fettered by an invisible force

indoctrinated by good intentions

and each left to sleep alone

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Work Brought Back From the West Coast 02 (Dreaming)


24 Nov

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Ice Cream (Gilded Diadem)

 

I liked feeding her

without succumbing to paternalism:

all the writing they read

(they aren’t aware)

usually only took one hungover half-hour

while the argument between mint-chocolate chip and rum raisin is a much more delicate

-      and time consuming    –  

digging in of aesthetic discourse

but she tasted like two continents

and she always got her way.

Sweet and succulent

she licked the bottom of the spoon

then let her terpsichorean tongue devour it

the cold confection like Buddha to the Taliban

and she smiled like a small savage filled, the successful sacrifice sufficed.

A little devil with little tricks.

She let me kiss her shoulder,

but not her lips

so I gave her another spoonful

and only then

she acquiesced my appetence

like death in slumber delighted by the smell of fragrant virgin’s bower, like the almond of her hair, a weary poetic repetition from her gestures to tempt me  

because she knew  

that I loved

how she made me grateful, guiltily poisoned.

Intoxicated, I did not want to reemerge from her intoxication

and as always

I realized

that I was created to want her

and wander until I found her

like a breath

like a glass of gin

like the West Coast

like the eventual choice of mint-chocolate chip.

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A Story That We Will All Soon Forget


21 Jul

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Before the Perfume Fades

 

The barrel of a gun is less frightening

than the eyes above it staring cold

and you know that everything ends

in a quick, unburdened burn

but, it’s all good for now:

her lips

lecherous eyes and frisky demands underneath the table

and the best pancakes ever

at an all night diner on Tenth avenue

I’ll sip my coffee slow, baby  

because I never rush a good thing

until the lines get blurred

by threats and ultimatums

and all your maenads who have an opinion for you

The truth of that savagery is more frightening

than the way it really is

an illusion with a tongue 

and no regrets

until a shot rings out like a worried firecracker

and we see that nothing good happens in Brooklyn

as we believed before

when we were, as children, stoned and delighted

by the way

the sun shone across a rushing train

heading late to further destinations

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One Way Street


29 May

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Clustering Regret

 

A comfortable numbness produces no more work than was expected

just a sentence of promises comforted by ellipses and a Rum and Coke

and somewhere there it begins to feel like a cleverly enameled effigy burning

and a crowd is gathering to stare at all the various embellishment

and the smoke gets in your eyes and hair

because it’s just like any other show

like a bitch in heat with money like mewling in the jaws

like an unexplained sorrow to promote some demonstrative, sensitive genuineness

that was already paid for

and there are no more poems to write about a girl that doesn’t pen her letters to me anymore

just a new set of eyes and lips to bathe with in the old bathtub, with the gray bathwater and the familiarly sweet bath soap that smelled like your taste, in my old, shabby bathroom likely cunningly conceived to last by some punctual HUD employee collecting an equitable wage through his compiled W-9s in his own sordid hell

which reminds me of nothing much

except maybe when we shared our last drink on the late night 2 train to Penn Station

watching out for cops and voyeurs  

and you seemed prepared for a longer goodbye than I was willing to give

and you fell asleep on my shoulder

and I fell asleep beside you because it seemed better than a future without the luster of your urbane seduction strangling a dream from my languished form

and you missed your connection

and we ended up in Brooklyn

and I took you back home and you weren’t disappointed

because

A comfortable numbness produces no more love than can be exhausted

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Short/Ardent


28 Oct

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Found this cool little video (apparently commissioned by Chipotle to raise money for Farm Aid), with a brilliant cover by Karen O of Willie Nelson’s “Mammas Don’t Let Your Babies Grow Up to Be Cowboys” floating above the images of youthful mischief:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AhG8gnEAKks

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Live now, baby

A fan since inception

I’ve followed you

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Be careful, baby

There’s nothing you shouldn’t do

But fall

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Thankful, baby

Find a way to let me know

You’re voice isn’t it all

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No time exists

I promise you, baby

It’s all far away

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Sleep now, baby

There’s nothing but beauty in you

Nothing else I know

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But the dream I see

Yours

If it was for me

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P.S. Robyn Young (who plays the character of “Lilia” in the short film we made “I’m a Hard Man to Kill”) has a short clip online entitled “Trojan Horse” which can be found in the link provided. 

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For the Girl from the Westcoast


02 Oct

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I know you didn’t think I was going to do this. But here it is.

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Referential Love Poem

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If I could be a dog

I’d try for Bulgakov

heartless

but I’d likely only get a longing

like Iggy’s,

though I’d still be yours,

stalwart with a manic pulse,

yours completely.

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Watching you melt above me

as always, though new

like changing weather

a flower swallowed

a mighty rage as old as ancient bones

dopamine, prolactin charging passionately out of habit.

Watching you melt above me

primal, humid, nearing and consuming…

I am yours,

made for your wrath or for your lenity,

yours completely.

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On Romain Gary/ More Color than Found in Photographs


25 May

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Romain Gary said:

“Reality is not an inspiration for literature. At its best, literature is an inspiration for reality.”

I think that’s the reason that most great writers are so obstinately fearful of analysts. Imagine writing your own fragmented existence.

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Romain Gary won the Prix Goncourt twice though it was meant to only be given out once to per lifetime, per any given French author. He had his nephew accept the honor on behalf of his pseudonym. He fell into an amorous and incendiary love affair with a woman who later became his second wife – American actress Jean Seberg. Their relationship lasted through an eight year tumultuous marriage, which was both psychologically and physically abusive. They separated and she moved back to the US – where she was hounded by Hoover’s FBI for her strident advocacy of Civil Rights until eventually she took her life on August 30th, 1979 with a combination alcohol and barbiturates: “Forgive me. I can no longer live with my nerves.” Less than a year and a half later, on December 2nd, 1980 Gary took his own life through a self-inflicted gunshot wound: (adamant in his suicide note) pointlessly promising to a constantly judging world that his death had nothing to do with Seberg’s death. Love is volatile and loneliness is merciless.

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[Now, here's a pertinent poem from the manuscript:]

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You are the reflection in my coffee

You are the venom in my blood

You are the darkness building underneath my weary eyes

You are the promise of forgiveness

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There would be nothing but you if you wanted to be

You are the everything important that never dies

You are the blurb on Jean Seberg and Romain Gary

You are the morning newspaper left on a subway bench for further reading

You are natural progression;

An arpeggio, but not a full concerto –

You have no need for a conductor.

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You are the woman in the rain

You are the story I was writing

You are the one that is never finished

You are the definition becoming cliché

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Jack Tsoy Tumult

Morose Pontifications and Other Poetic Ramblings


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